beth0329

So, I'm really proud. I've been writing in this thing since March, I think and I still haven't written about money...so today is the day!

I HATE MONEY! I hate that I'm so dependent on it, I hate it that I can't do anything without it, I hate it that it's what's keeping me from my dad, I hate it that I can't just give it all away to the people who I know need it, I hate it that my church can't do everything that God has planned for it because people won't tithe because they're scared to death of giving away their money...yet a lot of them would buy new stuff without batting an eyelash. UGH!

I just got my check today...$216.15. I don't even think that's enough to pay for a one way ticket to Oklahoma. Thankfully when I went to my office today my boss told me that my client is actually coming home on Monday so I'll go into work Tuesday morning so that's a plus and she asked me if I could take a new client on Saturdays and I jumped on that. So every Saturday now I'll be working from 12-6. I see how God is taking care of me, I really do and I'm not doubting His care or trying to make it seem less than what it is, I'm just like every other middle class American who struggles with money. I was really hoping to be able to put some of this check into my savings so I wouldn't have to pull the whole $300 out of my next check for rent but I don't think I can do that.

I wish I lived in a community where we all pulled our money together and took care of each other. I don't think anybody should have to worry about money or wonder how they're going to pay their bills or whether they'll have enough gas money to get to wherever they need to go.